Unpredictable, unpreventable…mess

Back in 2011, doctors initially diagnosed me with type 2 diabetes. Within a matter of weeks, they diagnosed me as MODY (Maturity Onset Diabetes of the Young). However, blood tests showed that even this wasn’t the case. So they told me I simply had diabetes type 1.5. Talk about leaving me in the lurch!

Consequently, I spent 18 months trying every single form of tablet for diabetes treatment. Nothing worked. I was either too sensitive to the doses, or the tablets didn’t affect my glucose levels.

Every day I wake up and wonder how sensitive my body is going to be, that day. You see, I check my glucose levels. I check them A LOT. I check them when I wake up, I check them before and after meals, before and after exercise, before driving, and after correction doses, to name a few scenarios.

If I’m being honest, I really don’t like to correct my glucose levels, and generally I don’t tend to correct, unless I’m in the teens. Historically, there have been times when just 1 unit of insulin knocks me to the ground, and there have been times when 1 unit does absolutely nothing. My stubborn pancreas refuses to let it in, and so I have to wait hours for my levels to come down, in their own time. I’m not a patient girl and it drives me crazy.

One thing I haven’t quite sussed yet, is what determines how sensitive my body is to insulin. It just seems that my pancreas has a mind of its own and entertains itself on a day to day basis. My pancreas cares not for how I’m feeling, how tired I am, or the fact that I’m going out to eat later that evening, so don’t want to have to treat a hypo/stuff my face before then. Stupid pancreas.

I’ve been lucky enough to be given an insulin pen that deals in half units. This is great, considering just 1 unit can sometimes bring me down 4-5 notches. But how do I know if the correction dose is going to bring me down 4 or 1? I know that various things can affect glucose levels – stress, illness, adrenalin. But not even those factors produce any sort of consistency when I’m looking at how much the correction dose will drop my levels by.

I’ve tested so many times, throughout the day and night *yawn*. I keep a log of my glucose levels, but it makes no sense to me. True to say that this has been a stressful 6 months, and my body might well be changing. In truth, I don’t want it to. Diabetes is tough enough, why make it even tougher?


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